Thursday, August 23, 2012

Thanksgiving Thursday: Health And Safety

Last week, I spent the whole week in Neurosurgery Department. Two words to describe neurosurgery: cool, yet painful.

I love surgeries, so I definitely enjoyed my time there, without question. Watching a brain surgery is like watching a totally different surgery than any other surgeries I've watched or scrubbed in before. The machines, the tools, and of course the techniques, are way so cool. Especially because we're operating on a head, not other parts of the body, and that makes brain surgeries so horrible to watch. But not for me, though. I was still as excited as usual to watch the surgeries =p

Because a single mistake can ruin everything, usually us, the interns, are not allowed to scrub in. We can only watch the whole procedure. But lucky me, I scrubbed in twice, because they were simple surgeries (both were the resection of scalp lumps, in which we didn't have to open the skull). My tutor was so nice and kind to me. The director even treated me for lunch in the OR's canteen because I ran out of balance in my canteen card *blush*. Well, one of those two surgeries went more complicated and 2.5 hours longer than it should've been, because in the middle of the surgery, we found out that it wasn't a lump; it was an arteriovenous fistula. Arteriovenous fistula surgery is a very complicated surgery, because it bleeds so much and so easily. But the surgery went well and the patient was in good condition :)

Despite all the "coolness" and "awesomeness", I almost cried when I saw the patients in that department. You know what happens to people with brain problems. Some of them change in their behaviours (they scream all the time, or they can't move their bodies), or some change in their appearance (they had part of their skulls removed, etc). And they have to survive dangerous surgeries to remove the tumors or whatever problem they're having inside their head or brain. Thank God I wasn't in charge of the ICU, because I would've felt more terrible there. ICU's patients are those who are very critical, and most of them are unconscious, or have been unconscious for a very long time. It's common to see someone dies in ICU :(

Spending a week watching all those things makes me being so grateful everyday that I have a good health. I get to wake up every morning and be able to do anything I want to. Those simplest things we always forget to give thanks to God, yet there are so many people out there can't even open their eyes. There are so many families out there having to watch their beloved people laying unconsciously on beds. What a reminder! And I thank to God for that, too. For giving me such a reminder that I still have so much to be thankful for.

Well, I'm having a common cold now - cough and running nose - because I had to meet patients with respiratory diseases too in that department - some of them had bad coughs - and I think I got too exhausted, which make my immune system weak. But still, I'm perfectly fine, though I hope this coughing and running nose will end soon. Wearing a mask when you're having a running nose is a bad thing! >.<

Another thing that slapped me on the face (and I want that to remind you, too) is the fact that so many patients of the neurosurgery are from traffic accidents. They got brain injury, brain hemorrhage (bleeding), brain traumas, and they even lost their lives, because of traffic accidents. That makes me don't wanna experience that (who wants?????) and reminds me to drive more safely and carefully. It feels like I'll waste my life if I have to lose it on a traffic accident :( So, my dear friends, please drive safely for the sakes of yourself and the people who love you!

Have a nice week and God bless :)

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Me And My Guilt

Oh, I'm falling back in love with fashion lately! No, maybe it's not the right words to use. I never fall out of it, I'm just falling for it deeper these days =p

One of the reasons is because there's been a BIG SALE happening in this town since June! All of my favourite brands like ZARA, H&M, Mango, Bershka, and Pull&Bear! Going to a shopping mall where those brands exist is like committing suicide for me during these past three months. I never came out of it without carrying a single shopping bag, even on those days when I didn't feel like shopping >.<
I was in the similar condition around two years ago, when I shopped almost every week. At that time, I always went to my favourite shopping mall every week after church and spent half of the day inside the fitting room with my friend, trying everything we found =D And this big summer sale "has awaken" my shopping spirit back *evil grin*

Here are "some" of my newest stuffs from my fave shops:

Bershka floral wedges

Bershka brown pumps

ZARA red dress (front and back view)

Pull&Bear black one-shoulder lace dress

Oh yes, I LOVE shoes and dresses! I got them so cheap you won't believe the price =p Unfortunately I don't have the pictures of myself wearing them yet..

How could I resist something like that?? Especially if I compare it to what I'll "face" back in Indonesia. Everything is more expensive in Indonesia when it comes to fashion, I think. Especially for shoes. That's why, I'm in the moment where I-have-to-shop-while-I-can-for-the-sake-of-myself -but-not-for-my-pocket LOL. It's so worth it to shop here especially during big sale like right now :D

Shopping is another bittersweet thing for us girls. We feel so guilty because we spend some amounts of money, on the other hand, we are happy to get those stuffs we love, too, hahaha..

Lately, I'm back to following fashion bloggers' blogs again. I used to open Lookbook everyday, but not anymore, because I think it's not good for my mental health. It made me wanna shop again and again and again =p However, it's really interesting to watch the development of fashion in my own country, especially my hometown, Surabaya. And of course I wanna know what style of fashion they're having now back home because I'm going back soon *yay!*

As I've told you just now that I'm going back to Surabaya soon - I'll be graduated in January 2012, please pray for me - I'll have to pack everything. I don't wanna know what will happen and what my daddy will say when he sees my stuffs, hahaha..

But don't worry, the summer sale is going to end soon, which means my "sweet suffering" is going to end soon, too, hehehe *HOPEFULLY* Actually, I rarely shop, you know.. That was why my friend encouraged me to buy those stuffs I wanted to buy, because I don't go to shop often, especially after working as an intern in the hospital. Being an intern is way more exhausting than being a busy girl I used to be! It makes me wanna stay at home during weekends. Or maybe it's just me getting old? Hopefully not, hahaha..

Today, I wanna recharge my energy on my bed while refreshing my eyes by seeing the pictures of Indonesian fashion bloggers. Have a relaxing evening!

PS: Eid Mubarak to those who celebrate it :)

Sunday, August 12, 2012

To Answer Your Calling

Baruu aja selesai nonton sebuah film. Judulnya "What If". Sebelum nonton, I had no idea about the movie. Sempet baca sinopsisnya tapi cuman awalnya doang, bahwa film ini adalah tentang seseorang yang telah mengambil sebuah keputusan besar dalam hidupnya, kemudian dia mendapat kesempatan untuk melihat kehidupan apa yang dia akan jalani JIKA dia mengambil keputusan yang berbeda saat itu.

Tapi ternyata film ini lebih dari sekedar itu.

Bukan sebuah film baru, "What If" diproduksi tahun 2010, dibintangi oleh Kevin Sorbo (Hercules) dan Kristy Swanson (Buffy The Vampire Slayer The Movie). Benjamin Walker (Kevin Sorbo) dihadapkan pada sebuah pilihan, his college sweetheart Wendy (Kristy Swanson) and his faith, atau pergi ke luar kota selama 8 bulan demi mencapai karir yang ia impikan. He was a preacher at that time. And he chose to leave for the job. Hidupnya berubah semenjak itu, dan, seperti yang telah aku tulis di atas, 15 tahun kemudian Ben Walker diberi kesempatan untuk melihat kehidupan seperti apa yang akan ia jalani seandainya ia memutuskan untuk memilih jalan yang lain. And, what God actually wants and has been planning on his life.

Dengan segera, film ini telah mengambil hatiku. Seperti "Fireproof" yang telah aku review di SINI, "What If" adalah salah satu dari sedikit film yang berkualitas dan menghubungkan kehidupan sehari-hari dengan our faith. God. Salah satu dari sedikit film yang dapat menginspirasi dan bahkan mungkin mengubah hidup kita. Salah satu dari film berkualitas yang memiliki makna dan pesan yang sangat mendalam.

This movie is highly recommended, if you want to watch a good, inspiring movie instead of the bad ones, just like most of movies these days. Although it didn't make me cry like when I was watching "Courageous" (YOU SHOULD WATCH THIS ONE, TOO!!), it has become one of my fave movie instantly.

"For your weakness is My greatest strength. And I will be with you."
Do we allow Him to say that to us? And will we listen to Him?

God has sacrificed everything to be with us. So, sacrifice everything.
It's not simple. It's just hard.

Thank you for dying to save us, Lord..